Chapter 41.90 Threw it back a little [ ok a lot 🙄 hush 🤐 ]

August 6, 2021 Chapter 41.90 

Threw it back a little [ ok a lot 🙄 hush 🤐] 

to 19 year old me ..... determined, stubborn, sassy, and never took no for an answer 😬 So proud that no matter how much I’ve wanted to give up because I felt discouraged I never did. 🥰 There were times I took a break to regroup. If I’m going to be honest there were events and sh#t relationships in my life that I allowed to distract me from myself and even discourage or belittle me from pursuing my dreams. But I learned if you don’t want to be a door mat ya gotta get off the f#cking floor 🤷🏼‍♀️Today I push through that sh#t ...my fears and self doubt [ I can hear some of you rolling your eyes like what doubt does this b#tch have to worry about.. be real we all have insecurities so get over yourself you are not alone ] 👽 I push through them because I choose to and I use my fears as motivation 🙌🏼 [ and I’m not saying it’s alwayssss easy 😜] Regardless I keep working on it. Just like when I was 19 years old I am  reaching for the sky because why not, if not now then when ? We get one chance, what are you going to do with your shot ? We can sit around and wish we felt better, complain about this or that. We can listen to doctors and feel sorry for ourselves and focus on this sh#t like “diagnosis codes and labels” and allow that to be an excuse to not move. However b#tching about what you are CHOOSING to not take control of and change is a choice. Sure we all have some kind of f#cking limitation, some more than others but you are limited only by what you allow yourself to believe you are limited by. 👏🏼You can choose to find yourself because we all lose sight of who we are it’s pretty common but you don’t have to stay feeling lost. CHALLENGE YOUR THINKING 💭What are your dreams ? What did you want to be when you grew up ? It’s never too late to pursue literally anything you can dream of. You can change any pattern in your life if YOU are ready. Well, are you ready ? If so take this journey with me you are NOT alone. YOU CAN DO THIS ❣️

xoxo 💋 Eliza Jayne